Horror, comfort and PS2 Games

'Art should comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable” – Cesar A.Cruz.

Silent Hill 2, which is regarded as one of the most unsettling and terrifying games ever, was an 8 year old Athena's comfort game.
When we moved to Canada, I was often at my relative's house because there would be no one at home to take care of me. All of my relatives were a lot older than me and busy with other things so they'd often leave me with something to do.
Usually it would be a book, PSP or a PS2.
The PS2 they had was owned by one of my ates. She loveeed horror games so most of the games that she had were horror.

The very first horror game that I played was Silent Hill 2 and for the very first time, I 'met' someone like me.

I won't go into details but my childhood was not the best. Because of that, I never really knew any other kid like me.
Adults treated me like I had no thoughts. Kids were happier than me, more normal than me. I always felt alone.
Angela Orosco, a character in Silent Hill 2, was finally someone I could relate to. Quiet, and full of anger from the abuse she suffered. Surrounded by flames she says, "For me, it's always like this."

The simple realisation that other people have been through the same things felt like a weight was lifted off of my shoulders. Before this, my trauma felt like a huge secret that was my burden to carry. A secret that no one else carried.
It became a comfort to see these messy and traumatised characters.

UPDATE : A REMAKE OF SILENT HILL 2 IS IN THE WORKS?!??!?!!?!?!?!?!?!??!?! ARE YOU JOKING ME?!?!?!??!?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YESSSSS KONAMIII YESSSSSSSSS PLEASEEE ALTHOUGH I NEED TO BUY A PS5 NOW

Another game that I loved was Rule of Rose. It's been a week or so since I wrote this sentence. The truth is that I loved it in past tense.

In 2017(?) I got my first boyfriend. I don't think I told him about *insert tragic backstory here* but I do remember telling him about what Rule of Rose meant to me.
When we were arguing one time, he compared me to the villain of Rule of Rose.

Before this, I'd say that Rule of Rose was my favourite game. The game that meant the most to me.
I don't think my relationship with that game has ever really recovered. I only realised it when I was writing this because I wanted to write about comfort but all I could remember was being compared to someone I hated.

Anyway, I'm sorry to end it here.